Sixteen years with leukemia taught me to savor life

Sixteen years with leukemia taught me to savor life 
Cure; by Michelle Lawrence; 5/21/25 
I’ve lived with large granular lymphocytic leukemia for 16 years and have learned to spend my energy wisely, embrace palliative care and choose joy over anger. ... It has been an exhausting journey, but I am blessed to have survived 16 years. ... In the beginning, I didn't care; I told everyone because I was treatment-focused, but now I am focused on quality of life. Cancer has robbed me repeatedly. Peers and family members are married and have careers and families. They plan birthday parties and playdates and worry about their kids’ homework. I celebrate the fact that I could take a shower and get dressed by myself. I grieve for those missed opportunities. ... I have recently, in the past couple of years, transitioned into palliative care, a choice I never dreamed of ever making. ... I am a survivor — I am more than my diagnosis. I am not Michelle, the cancer patient; I am Michelle who has cancer. ...